The Past is Fresh

I can't sleep again. I'm sad. I want to talk to someone whom I can trust, whom I know I can talked to and can keep my secrets. I feel I am lonely, the first time I felt as a single. I remember, before I said I am happy to be single. Yes, I realized I was happy.

I don't know what I feel today, I feel there is lacking in me. I feel there's something wrong in my life. Then I remember my dear, I am supposed to text her at this very moment but I decided not to send the message and prefer to keep it in my heart and mind. I know it is not wrong to send this message that I have typed, but I don't want to bother someone with what I feel. I can still manage myself.

This is the first time that I sat outside and let my tears fall for myself. I do not know. This is not new to me anyway, this is me before, and thought have leaved it, and now I realized I still bringing it until now.

I am human, I know. I pray and I offer it to Him. I am asking for someone from Him. I realized I was so different...